..but she just smiled and turned away

Because I need you most.

2005-10-13T02:23:27Z

Friday: Pokey came over in the morning. Mom actually started talking to me, of course, because Pokey was there. I got dressed, and packed and stuff. Then we went to his house. We stayed there the whole night I think.

Saturday: Pokey wanted chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast so we went to Bickford's, but it was packed, so we left. We had to stop at CVS, and he bought me Kit Kat Bites and gum and mints :). We went back to his house and his mommy made breakfast. Ketchup on eggs = icky. We hung out for a while, then went over Jake's. Jacob! *hugs*. Hi Ramsley and Nolan and Eric. Fred came over! Jake's mom showed me baby pictures of Jake and Eric. So cute :). POGS. Jake was being mean. Good-bye hugs for Nolan, Fred, and Ramsley.. but not Jake! Just kidding, Jake can have one too <3. Pokey and I went back to his house and watched movies and stuff.

Sunday: Pokey went to work and I slept in. Then I got up and showered. Then his mom gave me a ton of baby albums of Pokey, hehe. I spent almost two hours looking at them. His mom made me lunch, and then I did some math homework. Then I watched a movie and Pokey came home. We just hung out and watched movies.

Monday: Pokey got up early, rawr. We showered and got ready, and went to a jewelry store and Best Buy and CVS and Walgreens. We went back to his house for a bit, and then went to go to this other store but it was sketchy so we didn't go in, then we went to GNC. Then we went back to his house and watched movies. I'm not a cock fiend! We ate dinner and then went to Stop & Shop. Then I came home.

Tuesday: Yay for no school! But I had to go there for some meeting thingy. Then I came home for a few minutes. Damon makes me laugh. Then I went up to see Pokey. Rawr, bad things. We went up to his room and hung out for a while. Then I came home, ate dinner, and eventually went to bed.

Today: Math. I was pretty much falling asleep the whole time. Came home, did nothing for a while. Went to Walgreen's. Came back home, then went to dinner with mom and Tony and Bridget and Brittany. Went to CVS. Came home, la la la.

I have been having the weirdest dreams lately.

2005-10-07T04:08:51Z

Friday: Brittany and I went to pick up Stellapet and Liz. The directions Stella gave me were awful and I got lost and went my own way, but we made it! Stella's dorm room is pretty big. Packed up the car and headed home. When we were back in Framingham we went to eat at Uno's. Dropped Liz off, and Stella. Came home for a bit, then headed up to Pokey's.

Saturday: Pokey's dad came down and we went out to eat at Friendly's. I was scared and sat there silently like an idiot. Went back to Pokey's and his dad left. Big Nick, Pokey, and I went to the mall. Pokey got some earrings and Big Nick got a controller. Then we went to Big Nick's house to get a video game thing. We went back to the college and I went home. I changed my clothes and got some money and left. I went to Strawberrie's to get my ticket and then drove around for a while. Then I went to Friendly's and got some ice cream. My waiter was crazy nice. I liked him. Then I drove around for a little bit more, and then went home and went to bed.

Sunday: Bad mood. Locobazooka! I picked up Christina and then we went to Stella's. Di, Mark, Sarah, Dave. We went to Stop & Shop to get some things. Then we went to the concert. Hi, Pokey. Walked around for a bit. Hi, Jess and people. We went to one of the stages and managed our way up to the fence. We were getting crushed, but Di was protecting me. Then Stella felt sick and got out, so Di left too. So Mark and Sarah were protecting me, but they left too. Then Christina and I met these two guys, Brian and Dave? They were protecting us, but then Dave left so we only had Brian.. but all was good. The security guys were awesome, except for this one little fucker who I hated. And one was a pervert, but he gave me a pic so it was okay. Then the concert ended and I couldn't hear anything. Pokey and I waited in the parking lot until most of the people left, and then we went to Friendly's. He went back to his college and I went home.

Monday: Math. I was two minutes late and as I was walking towards the school I saw Dan coming towards me and he said "You're late," and I wanted to hit him. Went to class, blah blah blah. I came home and ate, then picked up Brittany, Stacy and Damon. Came home and did nothing.

Tuesday: Management. I was a half hour late for class, and of course it was the day we started our group projects so my teacher was angry. The people in my group are nice. There's this girl Katie, she's really pretty. I thought she was like 23 or 24 or something, and she's 31. I couldn't believe it. Then there's Jen, 23, she’s nice. And Marcus, 24, he’s like a Japanese cook or something. And Jeremy, 24, he’s like Abercrombie & Fitch pretty-boy model-type. Yep! Then I sat around during my free hour doing nothing. Then, writing. My teacher and I just have different views, simply put. Then computers. As soon as we finished our lab, we got to leave, so that was cool. I came home for a bit, and then Brittany, Bridget, Damon and I went to dad's. Damon is pretty much a part of the family now. Stayed there for a while, did math homework. Dad just gets me angry. Came home, did lots of math homework, and went to bed.

Wednesday: Math. We took a test which I felt I had failed when I was finished. I had to rush through it so that I could leave to go to the doctor's. My teacher wasn't going to let me leave because he's gay, so I just handed him my test and left. Went to the doctor's, that was so much fun. Then I went home with Brittany. Pokey came and picked me up and we went to Bob's. Pokey wouldn't buy a purple shirt. Then we went to Best Buy. We left there and went to Callahan. Took a short walk, and then sat in the parking lot for a bit. Monkey impression, oh boy :). Then we went to his house. We had pizza and watched The Longest Yard. I watched the last scene at least 3 times. Then I came home.

Thursday: Management. I was a few minutes late for class again, but we were just watching a movie. After the movie was over we got into our groups again to talk about whatever. I went to the computer lab during my free hour to quickly write a rough draft of my paper for writing. Then, writing. We just worked on our rough draft. Computers. We just did more labs and read out of the book. Came home, and did nothing I believe.

Friday: I had to bring my car to do whatever, and Pokey drove me back home. Then I went to Friendly’s with my aunt Connie and Kendall & Kasey. Spitting straw wrappers at each other! I’m a slob, I know it. Mall, shopping = boring. Came home, uhh, got my car? Went to Pokey’s dorm. La la la.

Saturday: Woke up and stuff, then Pokey and I left and went to his house. I had to shower, and I felt really uncomfortable. It took me like a half hour just to get in. I showered and whatever. Then we just hung out and watched movies. My mom is annoying.

Sunday: My mom showed up at Pokey’s, oh, yay. Embarrassing. She wanted the keys to my car. So she left and rairhioarhsio. Pokey had to go to work so I went home. I did nothing. Then when Pokey got out of work he picked me up and we went to Bennigan’s. Then I came home.

Monday: Math, boring, whatever. We got our tests back, 84. At least I didn't fail? Came home, did nothing. Quick, bring Stacy home! Okay. Damon! Yep, Damon came over.

Tuesday: Management. We went to the library to learn about how to do research for our projects. So stupid. Then I walked around for a while, then started to go to writing, but this boy stopped me and started talking to me. He asked me for my number, and normally I wouldn’t care, but I was surprised how nice he was about it. Then I went to writing, blah. We did some sentence stuff. Then computers. Boring. Came home, then went to dad’s. Yep, yep. Went to Walgreens. Came home.

Wednesday: Math, I hate it. I don’t understand anything we’re doing and the teacher has ADD like crazy and is all over the place. The girl next to me tried explaining it to me, but she said she doesn’t know how to do it either, so that was pointless. Came home, did nothing.

Thursday: The most pointless day to go to school. Management. We took a test, and got to leave when we were done, so I was out of class by 10. So then I had nothing to do for two hours, so I went to the computer lab. Then writing. We were in the lab so I went online the whole time. Then I went home instead of going to management, because our teacher said she wouldn’t take attendance that class and we didn’t have to go if we got our lab done. So, I came home and did nothing.

Friday: I got up and showered and packed and stuff and went over Pokey’s. Went out looking for cars. Went back to his house, then we brought my car to my house, and then went back to his. I swear I don’t drive too fast! We just hung out and watched movies and stuff. Ickyness.

Saturday: Woke up and stuff. I had to shower, rawr. I hate showering there. Pokey set up his drums and stuff and played songs on his guitar :). I liked it. Then his mommy made food. We watched some movies, I had to go to an interview at Bob’s. Hi, Bobby! There was this girl Cat, and she’s a clown. I thought it was really cool. Interview sucked. Hi, JR.. awkward. Pokey got his haircut. Then we went back to his house. Test, good news. Watched movies, then we went to Riley’s to see the cars. Went back to his house and his mommy made dinner. Ron bought everyone scratch tickets.. mmm. Watched some more movies and went to bed.

Sunday: Pokey had to work at 7, so he left and I stayed there and slept. Then I woke up and it was awkward. His mommy made me food and I just watched movies in his room until he came home. Then we watched some more movies. Ickyness! Then we ate dinner, and he brought me home. I had a ton of math homework to do, but I didn’t do it.

Monday: Math, blah blah blah. We reviewed the homework and then took a test. I didn’t even know we had one. Went home, did nothing. Damon came over. Fun stuff.

Tuesday: Management. We got our tests back; I got a 96. We just read over one of the chapters. My writing class was cancelled today which made me happy, so I went home for a while. Then I went back to school, and as I pulled into the parking lot, I saw the boy that asked me for my number standing with two of his friends. So, after I parked I waited for them to leave but they didn’t and I had to go to class.. so I had to walk by. He asked to talk to me and rawr, I got annoyed. He’s very persistent. Then I went to computers, and I was late. We just talked about the test coming up and stuff. Came home, did nothing for a bit. Then Bridget, Brittany, and I went to dad’s. Nice bike, dad. Aggrevation. Left and came home.

Wednesday: Math, got our tests back. 86. I was so bored. I just drew random things on my book and texted Fred. And Pokey, bleh. Bad mood. Came home, Damon came over. He’s so funny. Then I went up to see Pokey. Nick farting, haha. More arguing with Pokey. One Tree Hill :)! Baseball game. Bye. Came home, went to bed.

Today: I woke up this morning at 9:07, and class started at 9:30. I forgot to set my alarm last night, oops. So I got up and got dressed and brushed my teeth and left. I was still 15 minutes late, but oh well. We just went over ..something. Then we got together with our groups to talk about.. nothing. Then I went to the computer lab to do my paper for writing. Walked around for a bit, then went to writing. I just went online the whole time and sent messages back and forth to Jacob! <3. Then, computers. Went online for a bit, and then we reviewed for the test. As I was leaving school I saw Miller and he scared me. Came home, did nothing. Buddah was sitting on my lap while I was eating when Brittany and Stacy came home, and Buddah freaked out and stuck his paw in my soup, spilling it all over me, and then he ate the rest of it. That wasn’t fun. La la la, I cleaned my room some more. Pokey, fhsiefhsiofsefs. One of the dogs peed on the couch and Tony sat in it; I think I enjoyed it way too much :). More Pokey, bleh. Goodnight.

I haven't updated in forever.

2005-09-16T03:25:00Z

Last Tuesday classes started at MassBay. That was fun. I got there and waited for about an hour to get my schedule. I meet this kid, he creeped me out a bit because all he did was smile, but he was nice though. Went to first class a half hour late. Principles of Management, so boring. I wanted to fall asleep. Then I went to Wendy's. I ate by myself and that sucked; it reminded me of Stella. I got lost on my way back.. but Pokey helped me <3. Writing. Hi, can I borrow a piece of paper? I don't really like that class. Then Microcomputer Applications. Eh, it was okay. Came home and did nothing, I believe.

Wednesday, I had math. My teacher is such a weirdo. When he first walked in I thought he was a little.. slow. But Dan said he was a really good teacher, so I guess I'll take his word. Came home for a bit, aunt Connie came over to give me a card. Then I picked up Brittany. Came back home and did homework and stuff.

Thursday, long day again. Management, we just read out of a packet. I went and bought my books. Then I sat in the cafeteria and did my homework. Writing. We had to go to the lab this time. I had to work with this kid next to me. I don't like when guys shave or wax their eyebrows, it's just weird. Hi Miller! and friend.. Kyle? Then Microcomputer. I forgot my book, so this kid shared with me. He's nice. There's this girl who shall be known as Weird Girl, and she was wearing this bright lime green shirt, and she was talking to this kid Steve. When she stopped talking he turned around laughing and said "what a weirdo", haha, I found it funny. She wouldn't leave him alone. She's kind of old, too. Came home and showered and stuff. Then went to the Olive Garden with mom, Bridget, Brittany, dad, and Pokey. My parents are embarassing, but I'm used to it. Afterwards Pokey and I went to Callahan :). Mmm <3. Came home and went to bed.

Friday I went up to Pokey's. La la la, oh boy. Yea. Pokey, Big Nick, and I went to CVS, awkward! Came back. Gross feeling. They're losers and play video games all the time :).

Saturday I stayed at Pokey's for a while, then went to the campground. I saved Brittany and Stephen. We played with sparklers and just sat around the fire. I look like a loser. I was tired and went to bed early. I had to sleep with mom because Stephen and Jess were sleeping in our trailer too. She took all the blankets and I was freezing.

Sunday, we had a cookout thingy. Mega Death Hot Sauce! My mouth and throat are burning. Mmm, food. Clean-up time. Then me, Brittany, Bridget, and I left. Brought Stephen home, then came home. My rooms a mess and I don't care. Pokey picked me up and we went to the movies and saw The 40 Year Old Virgin. It was pretty funny. It reminded me of Pokey :) <33.

Monday, math again. I didn't get to sit next to Dan this time, hmpf. My teacher was wearing spandex clothing, not a pretty site. Came home and ate. Then went and picked up Brittany. Then I made Bridget go shopping with me. Rawr, shopping. Came home and did homework. Then some of my family came over and Brittany's friend, Damon, and we had a cake and stuff for my birthday. Uncle Ron is mean :(.

Tuesday. Management. We took this Myers-Briggs test thing to figure out our personalities, then we read out of a packet. Went to the cafeteria to do some homework. This boy from my Management class that always stares at me, was sitting two tables away staring at me. He's really scary and has no friends and he creeps me out. Writing. We did some in-class writing stuff. Then Microcomputer. The teacher just talked about whatever, I don't even know. Came home for a bit, and then Brittany, Bridget, and I went over dad's. Dad and I went to BJ's. La la la, boring. Came home. Went for a walk with mom and the dogs. Bye Damon!

Wednesday, math. The teacher was wearing spandex again. This kid sitting next to me was nice and let me have one of his extra card thingys with math stuff on it. Dan was way late for class. Came home, then went to pick up Brittany.. and Stacy and Daemon. Brought Stacy home, then came home. Damon went to his house real quick, then came over. He's a cool kid, I like him. Watched Happy Gilmore. Ordered pizza and stuff. Mom, Bridget, and I went for a walk with the dogs. Walgreens; pictures and more pictures. Came home. Nana <3 and David came over for a bit. Brittany, Bridget, and I went to Stop & Shop. Came home. Bye Nana. Umm, talked to mom? Awkward. Went to bed.

Today, bleh. Stupid rain. Management. This lady came in to give us the results of our personality test. I'm an intuitive feeling percieving introvert. Our teacher wrote down what everyone got, and he's going to put us into groups to work on a project. But, he's going to make it be with people that we wouldn't get along with, tyring to simulate what it would be like in real life, having to work with people like that. I'm going to hate this class now. Afterclass I didn't want to go outside because it was pouring. A girl next to me was actually putting trash bags on to protect herself. I finally went outside, and went to Wendy's. Stop staring. Went back to school and had to wait for class to begin in the lab. Writing. I disagree with your views. Okay, fuck you, I don't care. We did some stupid test things online. Then Microcomputers. We did these following direction tool lab things out of our books. Came home. Bridget, Brittany, and I went to dad's for a bit. Bleh. Came home. Water fight! Brittany made me bang my head on the cabinet. Yep, so, it's bedtime.

I miss Stellapet and the boys :( <3.

2005-09-06T03:10:30Z

So Stella told me to update again. So yea, here we go! Thursday.. umm, went out with dad for a bit. Stella picked me up and uhh, I don't remember. All I know is that by the end of the night we had pictures of Ed Sloan and mac & cheese and chocolate cake and reese's and flipz and chocolate chip cookies.. and that was enough for me! Friday dad and Bridget came into my room to wake me up.. at 7. RAWR, such a long day. Getting Papa from the hospital and the car and yea, blah. Then I went to go see Pokey. His roomates girlfriend is nice. Sleep. Got up the next morning, came home. Stella picked me up and we went to AC Moore to get frames, and the Christmas Tree Shop. Then we went to her house real quick, and then to Stop & Shop for CoinStar.. oh boy, haha. Came home. Went to Scotty's to say good-bye :(. Stella and Christina came. Then Hillarie, Cocksucker, Kasey, and Chris N came. Fighting over the picture of Derek! But it was a bad picture. Bye Scotty <3. Christina, Stella, and I left and went to Chris's house. Bye Christina <3. Chris and I went to Sloane Park. Jake, C-Bell, Nolan, Ramsley, Roger, Davin, Dan!, Liban?, Fred. I think that's all. "Oh, that's Fred and his girlfriend." Haha. I'm going to miss all of them, bye boys <3. Jake, Chris, Roger, and I went to Stella's. Her boyfriend Chris was there, and I apologized to him because Stella made me sound like a big loser and told him to be my friend :). Yea, and chocolate cake! Bye Stella <3. Came home, slept. Yesterday I did lots of nothing. Mom ran out of gas, rawr. Came home, had the house to myself. Chinese food and Adam Sandler make me crazy happy. Then Pokey came over <3. I swear he sleeps more than he's awake whenever I'm with him :). He left and stuff. Today Pokey picked me up. Dairy Queen for ice cream. He spilled more than I did! Then we went to the movies and saw Transporter 2. Came home, la la la. Classes start tomorrow; I didn't go to any of the orientations and I don't even have my schedule. Tomorrow shall be so much fun! Bleh.

Cops suck.

2005-09-01T04:35:00Z

So Monday I got up and showered, and Roger picked me up. We had to go meet Kaplan and this kid Josh real quick, and then we went to Roger's house. His bed is uncomfortable, but he has cute star sheets :). I went through his whole room. Belt. Jacket thing. T-Shirt. Hat. Glove. Wristband. I'm so cool. Roger made me a hotdog because I was hungry :). We just hung out being bored waiting for other people. I broke his belt, oops. We chatted about stuff and girlfriends & boyfriends. Then Stella, Chris, and Christina came. Sat there for a little bit, then went to Dairy Queen! I finally got my ice cream, yay! Pizza! Roger was nice and ordered for me. We left and went to Christina's house to pick up some games, and then we went back to Roger's. We played Clue a few times. Then we watched Troy. Um, no one payed attention at all. Mmm, popcorn! And ice cream sandwiches! I don't think Roger liked me eating all his food. Then we started to play Life. Blah, Pokey. We left and went to Christina's. More Pokey. Then we went to go pick up Matty <3. Back to Christina's. I pretty much fell asleep in the chair. Roger kept hitting me with the pillow :(. Came home. Yesterday I did nothing for a while. Then went to Papa Gino's with dad and Bridget and Brittany. Came home, and Stella picked me up. Went to her house and did photo things and stuff. Di wouldn't help so I said I hated him, I really don't! Sleep on the living room floor. Stella's dad came home, oh boy. Eric left! Jerk. Stella, Di, and I went to get gas. Jon, Felipe, and weird kid. Then we went to Bickford's. Mmm, chocolate chip pancakes! Came home. Then today. Stella picked me up and then we got Roger, and went back to Stella's. We left, along with Di, Mark, and Dave to go to Hampton. Met up with Christina and Alaina. We walked around for a while, and everything was closed because it was icky out. Pretty rainbow. The boys got some pizza, which was to be eaten by the seaguls. The birds freaked out and attacked the pizza. Walked around some more, Di played some games and he actually won twice this time. Then we stood in line. Um, Ed Sloan was randomly walking down the street with some other guy. *run over* Stella, Christina, and I got our picture taken with him. So cute. And he has freckles all over his face :). A seagul shit on Alaina's arm, icky. Roger, I'm bleeding. Hahaha. Hi, Matty! They were gay and wouldn't let me in. So then Di and I went and played mini-golf <3. I got a crazy hole-in-one. Then we walked around to the arcades and stuff. This guy tripped and almost fell, and I burst out laughing. It was so funny. Di played this football game.. and broke it. Haha, we just walked away. Walked around some more, then Missy finally came. She went in to get the keys for the car so I could get my purse, then Di got to go to the concert. Missy and I went to one of the stores, and then headed for home. Then we got pulled over, haha. I couldn't stop laughing. Speeding ticket, $250. Oh boy! Uhh, came home. And yea, sleep time!

Happy Birthday Roger!! <3

2005-08-29T05:26:00Z

So yesterday mom and I packed to go to the campground. We stopped at Pokey's house to get some things for him, then started on our way. Grocery store. Find out where Anna Maria is. Liquor store. Then finally to the campground. Unpacked everything, and then I went to go see Pokey <3. Met his roomate and friend, but they left. Uhh, NICE TO SEE YOU HILLARIE AND SCOTTY, yea :). They left for a bit, but they came back later. Pokey's bed is dirty. Scotty left. Hillarie came back. Watched Face Off. Popcorn. Hillarie left. I have a tendency to bang my head all the time. Sleep time :). Pokey makes cute faces when he's sleeping. And he twitches a lot. I didn't get much sleep. Got up this morning and went back to the campground. Stayed there for a while and then packed up to go home. I tried to sleep on the way home but it didn't work too well. Got home and showered and stuff, and Scotty picked me up. Went to the movies and met up with her cousins and Ming & Dan. Ming and Dan sat by themselves though. Girl talk :). We watched Red Eye. It was alright, kind of weird. Then Scotty and I went to Kelly's because that's where Roger told us to go, so we get there and Roger wasn't there so I called him and he told us to go to the hotel, yea, rawr. Party time. Roger, Stella, Christina, Laura, Mary, Jon, Victor, Felipe, Felipe, C-Bell, Nolan, Ramsley, Davin, Katy, T-Rex, and girl. Beer pong! C-Bell and I almost beat Jon and Felipe, but no such luck. They won like three times in a row. I hadn't seen Davin all summer! Crowded bed. Clothes pin = ouch :(. It was pretty much time to go and I was so hungry, so I hugged my boys <3 (Nolan was wet, hmm), and me, Scotty, Stella, Roger, Mary, Christina, and Laura left and went to Friday's. It's all weird looking in there now. Singing with the silverware. Dancing with Scotty in the bathroom. Throwing paper down each other's shirts. Eating everyone else's food :). Singing happy birthday to Roger and having the table of like 30 Brazilians clapping! Haha <3. Pictures! Scotty lost her keys. Hanging out in the back of her truck. Dumping stuff all over the ground. Stella did my hair all pretty. Super cool sunglasses! I'm a crack whore/freak/alien. Raping + touching + groping everyone. Mary makes me orgasm. Good-byes! Came home. Scotty and I sat in front of my house chatting about girl things :) LOVE.

Nobody loves you like the way I do.

2005-08-27T06:38:51Z

Yesterday morning I woke up and cried for a while, because I'm really going to miss Jake. I showered and stuff and went with mom to bring Bridget and Brittany to aunt Chris's house. Stayed there for a while. Then mom wanted her hair cut, so we did that. Then we went to Best Buy. Came home for a bit, and then she brought me over Jake's so I could hang out with Eric. No one else was home, hmm :). We watched Gothika and Thirteen and In The Cut. Gothika was so predictable. Mmm, popcorn and Butterfinger ice cream. Falling asleep! Mom picked me up and we came home. Stuff and then sleep. Got up this morning and did nothing for a while, then got ready. Mom and I went to the mall, ick shopping! Oh, lingerie. Then we went to Kohl's. Came home for a bit and then left to go meet Connie and Ron. Then we went to the Tweeter Center. Walked around for a bit. Hippies everywhere. Stop staring at me. A buck a suck! The three of them were pretty buzzed by the time we even sat down. Talked to some people. Ratdog! Bob Weir <3. Steve Miller Band! :)! It was awesome. Connie dancing. Mom dancing. You missed a good concert, Lindsay. I was thinking of you the whole time <3. Then it was time to leave. Mom slapped my ass and the guy behind me started talking about it, and then she told him he better not touch it or she'll kill him. Gosh, I love her :). Free ice cream! It's freezing; the paper's sticking! Ron and I lost mom and Connie.. but we found them! They found us, actually. We hung out in the parking lot for like an hour afterwards. Fireworks! Peeing in the woods, haha, oh boy! Something's touching me! Is this poison ivy?! Hahaha. Then us girls went walking. Hey, where's the party at? Boys are dumb. Go away. Singing songs in the car. Came home, and now I'm going to go pass out soon!

Stella told me to update..

2005-08-25T05:56:32Z

.. but it's been so long I can hardly remember what I've done.
Thursday.. went on some errands with mom, then went over Jake's house <3. His mom is funny and was throwing stuff at him. Then Pokey picked me up. He gave me Kit Kat bites :). We went to Bennigan's. I kept banging my head, getting out of the car, on the lamp.. and more the rest of the night. Afterwards we went to his house and watched movies. Weird noise, haha.
Friday.. ?
Saturday.. Bridget, Brittany, and I spent most of the day shopping. The mall. Toys R' Us. Best Buy. Newbury Comics, Hillarie and Mallory. Came home for a few minutes, then Pokey picked me up. Went to his house. Ate pizza. Then birthday cake time! His mom singing was funny :). Had cake and such. Blah :|.
Sunday.. oh boy. Pokey picked me up and we went to his house. Then we had a long/bad/interesting night, thank you so much <3. Three hours of sleep.
Monday.. Kind of a crappy morning. La la la. Hung out with Pokey. His mom is so funny. Ron is insane, really.. but it's amusing.
Tuesday.. did nothing for a while. Scotty picked me up and we went to Jake's for a BBQ. C-Bell, Nolan, Chris, Fred, Ramsley, Meh, Pokey, Minsoo, Stella, Hillarie, Mallory, Roger, Jon, Felipe, Victor, Felipe, Katy, Katy's brother.. and more people I can't think of right now. I wish Dan and Craig were there. C-Bell's a good cook. Nolan was humping Jake and Meh and wow :). People were coming and going. Talking with Pokey; his house real quick to get a sweatshirt. Back to Jake's. Meh got naked and ran around the house three times, crazy kid. Drinking. Roger's drink was so gross. Said good-byes. Drove around for a bit with Pokey then he brought me home. Good-bye.
Today.. four months. Dad picked me up this morning. Bank. Grammy and Papa's. Worked on my car. Other stuff. Dan's girlfriend Jess stopped by. I'm starving. Food. Came home and showered. Then I went over Jake's. Nolan, C-Bell, Chris, Roger, Carlos, 'G'(I don't even know his real name.) Ramsley, Katy.. and probably some more. Roger brought his car home, and Chris, Ramsley, and I picked him up.. and then he drove. Listening to Journey! Burger King with the rest of the boys. Liban came in. Then we went to Potter Rd. Jake <3. Katy came too. Stella came. Scotty and Robin came. So sad and depressing. C-Bell and I had the longest hug ever <3. Crying :(. Everyone left, and Chris, Stella, Roger and I sat in the parking lot for a bit longer. Then we went over to Jake's because I had Eric's sweatshirt that I had to give back. We stood in the driveway for a bit just talking, then we said our good-byes again. I'm going to miss that kid, fo eva eva <333.. and eva eva! Brought Chris home. Then I came home.. and as I was driving, I saw a shooting star. It was so pretty and the sky was perfect tonight.

The boys rock <3. And Scotty!

2005-08-18T05:03:08Z

Today mom, Bridget, Brittany and I went to Stella's dad's garage. I was so not awake. Then we had to go to mom's work for a bit, then off to the beach! It took forever to find one to go to, but we found one. Ice cream truck! Stayed there for a while, then headed home. Blah. Got home and showered and whatever, then sat around for like two hours doing nothing. Then Craig and Jacob picked me up. We went to the fire, and we were the first ones there, so we had to wait for peoples. Katy, Theresa, Jon, Felipe, Victor, and Felipe came? We walked down to the fire. Chris, Nolan, and Ramsley came I think? Yea, no one had a lighter to start the fire! Craig finally found one on the ground though. So many more people came: Josh, Nate, Tyler, some girl, Jen, Mallory, Ashley, Melissa, Mike, the Meh, Dan! Miller, Nancy, Fred!, Rogerrrrr and lots of other people that I just can't think of right now. See-saw! I have a big cock. Fighting with Pokey = blah. Smirnoff + Old English + beer + weed + whoa. Roger singing to Scotty. The fight that didn't happen? Scotty came! :) I had to pee, the woods are the best. We left because they saw cop lights or something? Craig is so mine + threesome with Roger + sloppy seconds + fo eva eva + Fred's a tool, yes. Scotty brought me home, and I love her + she loves my thong. Okay bye! :)

BLAH. Just blah..

2005-08-17T05:44:32Z

Mom woke me up this morning so she could rent a car. Brought her car to Stella's dad's garage. Then we were going to go to Big Al's but we went to some store instead. It was weird and so boring. Came home. Showered and got ready. Stella, Christina, Scotty and Kate picked me up! We went to Funway Cafe. Hi Krispy and Ryan and Billy. We went on the bumper boats first, bad idea. Kate and I got soaked. Wet jeans are the worst. Then we played mini-golf! I suck. Stella got two hole-in-ones. Then we went on the go-karts. So much fun! Christina and Kate slammed in the back of me, causing me to slam into Scotty. Their brakes weren't working? Haha. Then we went to the Chateau for dinner. Scotty crumbled up a piece of bread so there were crumbs all in my spot :(. I was choking and Stella's mean. Pictures! We left there and went to Walgreens, but it was closed. Then we were driving and Stella, Kate, and I had to pee so bad! Stella wouldn't pull over so I could pee in the woods; we went to her aunt's house though. I'm a quick pee-er! We left and drove towards home and went to Blockbuster. We didn't rent anything though. Then we went to Stop & Shop.. candy! We loaded up on candy. Then we went to Saxonville beach and just hung out and at candy. Scotty poured pixie stix all over me and in my hair and I can't get it out and rawr, gross. I poured some on her though, too. When we were walking back to the car Kate threw a ball into the woods and I screamed :(. Came home. Gave Stella and Scotty back their things. And uhh, yea. Bed soon hopefully.

And you'd never know how I was feeling.

2005-08-16T05:05:13Z

Yesterday I stayed home and did nothing. Then Jacob came over. Watched tv. Then we went to eat at Oriental Pearl. Mmm, crab rangoon. Came back here. More tv. Then we went to go pick up his friend Devon, and bring him to his girlfriend's house to get food, then bring him back to his house. He's a funny kid. I'm sorry, I just don't like new people.. it's nothing personal. Well that's your thing; maybe new people don't like you, that's just my thing. La la la. Came back here. Trailer Fabulous is even worse than the Andy Milanakosfjosaefhniso show. Jake left and I went to bed. The dogs slept in my bed, rawr. Today me, mom, Bridget, and Brittany went to Bickford's with my Nana <3 and great Nana. It was fun. My great Nana told me I shouldn't have a boyfriend, and that I should be dating a different guy every night.. and such, she's crazy :). Then my Nana left and we had to go to Bonnie's house to get great Nana's car. Then we brought my great Nana home. Afterwards we visited my Grampy's grave. Blah. Then we went to the doctors because Brittany hurt her hand. Hi Dan! Came home. Blah. Showered and got ready, then Brittany and I left. Went to get some gas. Ahh, creepy guy! Winking and smiling and kneeling and talking. Then we went to the mall, uesless. More creepy guys, ick. Left and went to Best Buy. Hi Stella's boyfriend. Got Pokey. Get out of the car. I don't like to drive with him. Brought Brittany home. Hi mom, ramble ramble ramble, okay bye! Went over Pokey's. La la la. We watched Me, Myself, & Irene. His mom came into his room and gave me two bags of candy.. she's so weird and funny :). And yep!

Cloudy skies, rawr.

2005-08-14T04:54:43Z

I spent most of yesterday watching tv. Grumpy mood. Melted wax is fun to play with. Then Pokey picked me up and we went to his house. Watched Ace Ventura and House of 1000 Corpses. When his mom came home she said goodnight and then closed the door to his room, it was weird. La la la. Came home. Today I did nothing for a while. Then me and the sisters went to Kohl's. Then to Old Navy. Long lines, blah! Then to Best Buy to see Pokey. We went to the Olive Garden, but there was a massive amount of people crowded outside. So we drove around for a while before ending up at Bennigan's. Our waiter sucked so much. I was so pissed off at her because she was doing such a horrible job; but then I found out she was in the bathroom crying, so I felt bad. We had a different waiter by the time we left, which was good I guess. Came home. Jenga! Fudgesicles. Mmm, boredom.

I have the worst short-term memory, ever.

2005-08-12T05:46:40Z

I did nothing for most of yesterday, I think? Then Pokey picked me up and we went to his house. His mom is funny. Pizza. Airheads. Old School. Some other movie that I can't remember. <3. Came home. Today I had to take my road test, eek, I was so nervous. The cop was amazingly nice and funny. The car I was just in smelled so bad I almost threw up. Those were legitimate crackheads. Haha, oh boy. I passed. Went to the bank. Then to MassBay. Stopped at home to get my phone, went to Cameron, then to Jacob's <3! Hung out there for a while. Got pizza. Craig and Nolan came over. Craig is bad at protecting me from Jacob. I can hit Craig, but he can't hit me 'cause I'm a girl.. so Jacob protected me. We left there. McDonald's. The Fire. Dicky, Minsoo, and Dan were there. Katie, T-Rex?haha, and Carlos came. Liban and C-Bell came. Dillon came. La la la, boring. If you were stranded on a desert island... Josh came as we were leaving. Came home and had to get clean because I was dirty and smelly from the fire. Cigars=gross. Happy Birthday to Chris! :)

You cock-juggling thunder-cunt!

2005-08-10T07:10:29Z

Sunday Pokey picked me up and we went to Beverly and around there. I like going to new places. Went to the Beverly Depot Restaurant, but it was closed :). Broken car. We drove around for an hour, then went back there. I met his stepmom; she's really nice. We ate, and then went back to his house. Traffic. We stayed at his house and watched movies <33. So tired. Came home and went to sleep., Bridget.. bah! Tuesday I did nothing for a while, then Jess came and picked me up. We went to Mul's house so she could get some clothes, picked up Ryan.. Hi BettyAnn!, then went to Arlene's. We ate dinner and hung out there for a bit. Arlene got chicken grossness on my pants. Then me, Jess, Ryan, and Billy went to Mul's. Hi Mul! We watched a video of his band and he cleaned my pants for me because he's awesome. Chatted for a while and then left. Brought Billy home. Jess, Ryan, and I left and went to Hollywood Video to meet up with Mike. He was taking forever so we decided to run through the sprinklers.. so fun :)! Then we left there because we didn't feel like waiting anymore; we went to meet up with John and Antoine. Not talking to John. Then Mike came. Hi, nice to meet you. Ahh, John be my friend <3! Then Mike left, so I left John. Antoine left. John went to his house to change, and me, Jess, and Ryan picked him up. His mom is super scary. We drove around for a little bit, doing nothing. So we brought John and Ryan to Ryan's house.. *flips me off 987656 times* 'but you smell nice though' *flips me off again*, bastard.. he's lucky I used to like him. Jess and I went back to Arlene's. So cold! Krispy set up her MySpace. Arlene bought me a container of ice cream because she's so awesome, and Billy and I ate the whole thing. Woo fat kids <3. She popped my cherry. You spoon me, I'll fork you. Fuck you harder. Fuck you longer. Fuck you raw. Incest, gross gross. It was an entertaining time :). Threesome!, which became a twosome by the time I woke up this morning. Got ready, and Jess and I went to the mall. Traffic. I'll try not to get us lost! We got there and such. Hola mami., oh go fuck yourself. We meet up with this lady Debbie, and her three kids. She has a three week old baby, so insanely cute. Stayed there for a while. Hello, awkward eye contact much? Yea. Then we left and went to Debbie's house. Patty cake! New dance moves. Then I came home. Showered and such, and Pokey picked me up. Went back to his house and watched movies. I'm mean :). I drew all over his arm and tummy, hehe. Then I called him names <333. Anyway, I can't stop coughing! I've been coughing for like the past three days and it's weird and won't stop. Okay, the end.

Once I rose above the noise and confusion..

2005-08-07T06:22:57Z

Um, Thursday I did nothing and then went over Pokey's. Home videos :)! Friday.. Pokey and I went to Bugaboo Creek for dinner, then went back to his house. More home videos with his mom <3. La la la <333. Today.. Walmart. Home, sisters room = big mess. Mom, Tony, Bridget and I went to Hunan Delight for dinner. Good talks. Picked Brittany up from Stacy's on the way home. RAWR, Brittany wants to beat me up for keeping her awake.. muahahaha, okay byes!

He's amazing <3.

2005-08-04T06:55:27Z

Hmm, yesterday! Mommy and sisters and I were together all day. First we had to go to mom's work. Then the registry.. that place blows hardcore. Dunkin' Donuts. Oh, fat creepy guys with shirts off, hello. The Children's Place. Famous Footwear? Let's dance! Oh, you're so weird. Verizon. Where to go? Let's get lost. The Coach Grille; let's leave. Bella Costa. Came home, and Pokey picked me up and we went to his house. We watched Willow! Ramble, ramble, ramble; I sound like a ditzy blonde.. I'll stop talking. Then we watched Dogma which I had never seen before. Came home, slept. Got up today and got ready. Mom and sisters and I picked up Stacey. Walmart. There's a fire in the card section. Haha, yea right. Code Red. Fire trucks. Okay, now what? Price Chopper. Dance, dance, dance. Stares and laughs. Boat. Stupid fucking bitch. Home, get ready, Pokey picked me up. Bennigan's. Pokey's mean and wouldn't let me play peek-a-boo or talk to the baby behind us. Movies, times. Drove around aimlessly for a half hour. Back to the movies. We watched The Island. I liked it. Came home, <3333. My dogs are such pains and yep!

I smell of beer. faisefesiofeshnio.

2005-08-02T04:56:41Z

So! Friday I cleaned and then went over Pokey's. Saturday I did nothing, then went over Pokey's. He fell asleep, but <3. Sunday I did more nothing, then went over Pokey's. Yep! Today Stella picked me up and we went to the Christmas Tree Shop. Then to Linens 'N Things. Stella likes to get people in trouble, haha. Hi Beth & Jenny & Julie. Umm.. Sonya.. ew! Then to Bed Bath & Beyond. Cool chairs that you can tip over in. Then Imperial China. There was this boy with a tiny ponytail on the back of his head and it was weird. Then to Target. Saw Harry, fheioshnfioeshnfios, awkward. La la la.. candy! Hi Justin & Lillian & Anthony. Went to Stella's for a bit, then over to Christina's. Christina, Laura, Renan, Dwane, Alaina, Dan, Breno, Laura.. and Dwane's little brother and friend.. I think that's who was there.. anyway! Card game called.. kings? Beer pong. I don't know. Christina was so drunk. We went outside and watched the lightening and ahh, so pretty :). Yep yep.

I miss him already.

2005-07-29T04:49:52Z

Got up this morning and did nothing. Then I woke Brittany up because I'm just an awesome sister. Did more nothing, then took a nap. Got ready and dad picked us up. Went to the movies to see Wedding Crashers, again. But that movies funny anyway so it doesn't matter. Hi Zachary. Went to Bed Bath & Beyond. Then to Linens 'N Things. Ahh, then Pokey <3. What is wrong with the world? People are such assholes. But yea, I <3 that boy. Back to Linens 'N Things. Then back to Bed Bath & Beyond. Came home and tried cleaning my room, but it just created an even bigger mess. Yep, I hate people. They suck.

Love love love.

2005-07-28T05:34:50Z

Hmm. Sunday I did nothing, then Pokey picked me up. Went to eat at Bennigan's. Got some gas and Aronson met up with us. Went to Potter Road to play for a bit. Then went to Burger King. Then we went to the movies to see the Devil's Rejects. Aronson left. Sat in Pokey's car for a while, came home. Monday.. I forget, then went over Pokey's. Had pizza and watched movies. La la la <3. Tuesday I did nothing, then Pokey picked me up. Dairy Queen. He spilled his ice cream this time, not me! Went back to his house, watched movies. <3. Today Bridget had some orthodontist appointment. Stella's dad's garage. Went out on the boat. Came home, Pokey picked me up. Went to eat at Bennigan's. Went back to his house. Watched movies. I saw a view of Ron that I never, ever wanted to see. Ever. And yea :).

I'm very much in like with him.

2005-07-24T18:43:43Z

Um, Thursday worked with Jon. Went back to his house. Blah. Pokey. Bad night. Friday worked with Jon. Pokey. Crying, <3 Scotty. Playground. Icky swings. Dairy Queen. I'm a slob. My house. He leaves. Talked to Jake for a while. Yesterday I went with Robin and this girl Jenn from her work to the Somewhere in the Sun Tour.. amazing. Uncle Kraker, Pat Green, Gretchen Wilson, Keith Urban <333, Kenny Chesney.. so awesome <3. There were these funny boys behind us and so many weird people there! I had a good time. Came home. Pokey. Constantine.. didn't like that movie. Long good-byes are fine with me <3. Mmm, okay.

Blah. This blows.

2005-07-21T05:09:07Z

Jon called me this morning to wake me up. Then I got ready and he picked me up. Work. Bertucci's. Russel and Rosa are quite funny. Post office trips. La la la. Umm..! We rode back to Jon's house on the bike.. and yet again I was wearing a skirt. He showered and I just hung out in his room. Jake came.. we called some people. I played dress up in Jon's things. Then we went mini-golfing with Ramsley and Ropi! Yay :). Jon peed in a bush. It was buggy and stuff and rawr. We left and went to Jon's work to get some food. Ramsley left and Felipe came.. but he went to pick up this girl first. Then we went to the movies. Saw Miller there, but he left..goofball. We saw the Wedding Crashers. So funny! Said goodbyes, and Jake brought me home.

Smile, it's time to play pretend..

2005-07-20T05:33:34Z

Pokey came over Sunday for a bit. Then I spent some time alone. Talked to Scotty for a bit, I don't know what I'd do without her <3. Then Jon picked me up and we went to his house. He has this puppet monkey and he's adorable and makes me smile. We watched tv and stuff. He asked if I'd ever used a blow gun which I thought was some sick, sexual joke.. but he really had a blow gun. He took it out and we shot these dart things out of it. Then we went to bed. His bed is quite tiny. Jon left in the morning to pick up some girl.. Katie? and I just slept some more. Then I got dressed and Jon picked me up. I banged my head while getting in the truck.. ouch. Went to work. Uno's. Post office trips. Then we brought Katie home. Jon stopped to talk to his friend for a bit. Then we went back to his house. He left to bring the truck back to work and I took a nap. He came back and showered and I just slept.. and slept some more. Then we left to go to the movies with Christina and Stella. We went on the bike.. and I was wearing a skirt.. and we were rushing.. yay, haha. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It was funny. And I jumped, but shh :). Then Jon and I went back to his house.. and I napped again. Then we went to TGI Friday's. Jon isn't very good at spin the fork, haha. Then he brought me home. Showered and went to bed. This morning I got up and ate, then got ready. Jon picked me up and then we picked up Jake. Went to work again. New people today. Chinese. Post office.. but this time I sat in the truck and did nothing :). Stopped at my house to get pants, then went to Jake's. Hung out there for a bit while he showered, then my mom picked us up and brought us to the train station. My mom's crazy. We had to wait there for a bit. Fenway. Yay Red Sox. The game ended at 10, and the train came at 10:13.. so we had to hurry to get out, but the train was late anyway. Got back to Framingham and Jake's mommy picked us up. I missed her <3, haha. Stopped at the hair cutting place and then came home. I need to talk to Scotty again :(

All we are is dust in the wind.

2005-07-17T06:10:19Z

So.. sleeping at Stella's last night! She snores :). And my back was hurting when I woke up. We ate and then I watched.. umm, Las Vegas? I think that's what it was called.. and she cleaned her room. Then we left. ATM, I'm kind of.. dumb? Yea. McDonald's. Then I camed home and showered. Stella picked me back up, and we got Christina and went back to Stella's. Then the three of us and Di went to Hampton. Christina and I looked at some car ad magazine on the way up.. cool stuff, haha. Got there, walked around, ate. Played mini-golf. It was inside and it was so hot and so frustrating! Played games. I wanted this dumb hat, and you had to play darts to win it.. but I just wasted so much money and didn't even get the hat. It wasn't even worth wasting that much money even if I did get it. There was this boy that had won and I wanted to ask him if he could get me a hat, but he was with his family and it would have been weird. Watched the beach get raked.. haha. Mmm.. fudge! Walked around even more. Got in the car and drove around a bit. Christina and I danced. Stared at the moon and stars on the way home and thought about life. Christina and I had to pee so bad, and yea, that was my day.

Yay Red Sox!!

2005-07-16T06:02:55Z

Today I got up and uh.. I forget! But anyway, Big Al came over and then we went out on the boat. We took the dogs with us and that sucked trying to hold them down on the boat and stuff. Then I came home and showered and what not, and then Missy picked me up. We picked up Stella and then went to McDonald's to meet up with Scotty, Christina, Mary, Laura, Robin, and Edgar. Scotty's shirt was on upside down.. haha <3. We left and went to the bowling place. It wasn't as fun as usual because when we first got there.. it wasn't dark inside yet.. and then when it did become dark, the music was hard to hear. Anyway! We left there and went to Uno's. Missy poured sugar on me.. so I poured sugar on Stella.. Stella poured sugar down my shirt.. so I put ice cubes all over her. Then I called Di and told him what she did. Ate, said goodbyes, then Missy, Stella, and I drove around stalking people. Then we went to Reardon Park and played there for a bit. Then we left and stalked people some more. Then we drove around and looked at all the big houses. Missy almost crashed into some mailboxes, we didn't, but later on we did crsh into a curb! I thought we were going to die by the end of the night. We came home and Stella saw in her bed the pile of sugar Di put on her pillow :). He's awesome. Then Stella picked up a can of silly string and sprayed me with it and it got in my mouth! So gross. So then Di gave me the can and I got her back. It was all in our hair and sticky. Now I'm sleeping over Stella's.. yay! Okay, byes!

fingeredflesh @ 2005-07-15T01:50:00

2005-07-15T05:50:41Z

Today sucked and I just want to go to bed.